like a dope fiend im at it again
cant think straight
Im all outta time
months of wishing you were mine
at the drop of a dime
you run and I cry
but u dont get it
I could never lie
with the way you look in my eyes
but you really dont get it
I would never lie

..so red friend..
i said its so damn red
and the black in it
makes me wish that..
ha ha Im at it again
a delema
of sorted
professers
stare at me
whats wrong?
they poke and they prod
love
the red spells
and the black inside
lets them see
i want...
So slow
im bleeding again
dont leave me friend
dont go away from here
im gonna be sick
I CANT TAKE THIS
so slow..

As you sit listening to her
exsaderations, ill call them lies
i am wasting all my time
with blood and ink and paint
waiting for you to see the picture
ive painted
with the truth
but its belated
and i cant stop thinking
of the mess im making
cause the pills
are leaking
into my veins
and the mess
its driving me insane
but its ok
oh yes its ok

Ill never see you again
Irrationality tares at my eye lids
lifts them high
and i wont forget
the way she lied
my friend
to take you from me

One more phrase and ill see her
in red
behind your bed its a secret
such regret i can see it
but I NEVER DID IT FIRST
and thats the worst
when its this way
i was so proud to say
YOU are MINE and
I am YOURS

Fuck this world
Who needs its bleeding and breathing
Fuck it im seceding
and I wont cry
if in my goodbye

you give me grace
ill leave this time and place
ill forget the rat race
pick it up
lift it up
my heart to your mouth
Suck it up
lick it up
my power and passion
light it up
give it up
and ill be sick on myself
this is your mess
but its driving me insane
cause it wouldnt be
if it wasnt for her
it wouldnt be
if it wasnt for me
but i still..
oh whatever, nevermind